On Summertime Expectations (43)

Ahh, August.  Though I try to see the main part of the month as still summer, it’s hard to ignore the back-to-school thoughts that start creeping into my mind.

This has been an unusual summer.  On one hand, it has been amazing — I love being home with my family, I really enjoyed my summer camp job, and overall things are going well.  On the other hand, it’s a little bit hard for me to reconcile the summer anticipation with what has actually gone down this summer.  My perspective has changed in regard to a few key things in my life, namely one or two of my ‘hometown’ friendships.

It’s no mystery that keeping in touch during the school year is really difficult, and it’s true that my friends spread across the entire United States when we moved to college.  With time, friendships naturally grow and evolve, but it’s always hard when they start to grow in opposite directions.  I’m thankful that the distance has united most of my friendships, re-instilling our appreciation for each other when we actually have the chance to hang out, talk on the phone, etc.  That’s certainly the case with many of my college friendships, too — living farther than down the road or across campus makes me realize how much I love having those friends close by at school.

On occasion, though, a friendship becomes weakened by the distance.  It’s not necessarily the weakening that saddens me the most (as, of course, that’s natural, too), it’s more so the new perspective that I’m forced to take on the friendship.  Instead of thinking about how much I look forward to seeing the friend when we get back to our hometown, it’s no longer a priority.  And to me, that’s really sad.

I’m firm in my belief that these things can change over time.  Just because one friendship might not be clicking as well in this moment doesn’t mean that it won’t be back on track in a few months, but sometimes it’s hard to realize that in the moment, especially when summer is winding down.

I always have such high hopes for the summer months, and I’m happy that so many of those hopes have been fulfilled.  However, I’m left with a nagging feeling, one that I hope to resolve sooner rather than later.

Anyone else feel this way right now, too?  Let me know in the comments below!

Until tomorrow,



On Yearly Check-ups (40)

Like many people, I have a slew of yearly appointments to attend when the middle of the summer rolls around.  Though most are somewhat nerve-wracking (at least the anticipation), they’re actually great reminders of what has happened over the course of one year.

Last year, I went to my appointments after a very difficult school year.  The summer became a time for recovery, both physically and emotionally, but it ended up being one of the best summers I’ve ever had.  This summer has been a lot different, especially in the sense that I had a lot less recovering to do after the school year, which I’m quite thankful about.

Both for good and for not-so-good, it’s amazing to see the changes that have happened over the course of one year.  Though not always fun, yearly appointments – eye doctor check-ups, pediatrician visits, etc. – can shed a lot of light on the year behind and ahead.

Until tomorrow,


On Counting Down (31)

I’ve always marked the Fourth of July as the middle of the summer, the day that symbolizes the march to the beginning of the school year.  However, I seriously try to appreciate every day, and that mentality never aligned with the ugh-almost-school post-Fourth countdown.  This year, I resolved to change my negative mindset about the Fourth of July, and it’s definitely been a success.

Maybe it’s due to truly enjoying my job, maybe it’s because this school year was more enjoyable than the last…who knows.  However, I’m definitely looking at each day – whether pre-Fourth or post-Fourth – as a new opportunity to have a great summer day, and I hope the mentality change sticks.

Happy Fourth of July!

Until tomorrow,